This is the first question that should come to mind as you are reading this blog. Followed by, ‘Who is this freak?’ and, ‘Why isn’t he in a straight jacket?’ Those are all valid questions. And the answer is long and drawn out. The short of it is that I’m not proud of who I am and the life I’m living right now. I make decisions that I know aren’t good for me. I’m not eating right. I don’t work out enough. I let relationships with some of my best friends evaporate. I haven’t been as successful as I should be career wise. I’m just overall unhappy. And for me, that’s not acceptable. That shouldn’t be acceptable to anyone in the world.
I need to do something, but it isn’t as simple as getting a gym membership. It’s deeper than that. I need a life change. And I’ve known that, but haven’t acted upon it for a while now.
I was up late one night and happened upon a documentary on Miyamoto Musashi, a Samurai. And I became infatuated with this guy’s life. I bought and read his book THE BOOK OF FIVE RINGS. It spoke to me. I bought and read other Samurai books. They all speak to me. The principles make sense. I started seeing a clearer vision of who I wanted to be and the life I wanted to lead.
The Samurai live their life with honor. They lived by a strict code in order to do that. Now, honor to them was about their family name in the eyes of others…but I don’t care about that. I just want to go to bed at night, proud of what I did that day. And I haven’t been doing that…almost any day this year. But that is going to change…or I guess if you’re reading this, has changed, as of September 26th, 2010. This is the beginning.
I am giving myself 365 days to become a warrior. To become the pillar of honor, not in your eyes, not in my friends or families eyes, not in my wife’s eyes, but in the mirror. I want to feel great again, mentally and physically about who I am and what I’m doing. And I think that this way of the warrior will help get me there.